I'm happy, and I can be happier

I met an old friend one time...I remembered, how that person treated me well before, but it was in the wrong place and in the wrong time. We met again after few years without communication. I can't help but to reminisce the first day we've known each other. Together with those memories are the other people who became part of me. I asked myself..Ba't ganon, no matter how hard you tried to have each of those person of your life to stay with you, no matter how you sacrificed your dignity and everything in exchange for them to stay, they won't.

Some of them wants to retrieve the treasure we had but at those crucial times, I can't give myself anymore. But when it turned to be that i needed someone, none of them are there for me.

That's why I agreed that on every relationship, no matter if its friendship or lovers, or family, they're like sand. You can't have them all no matter how hard you tried to hold on to them, only some will stay. The more you grip the more you will lose them and the more you open your hands, the more you lose them as well. So just hold on for some, enough that you can grip properly. And learn to let go. By then, it will easy for you to step up and walk on your life again. Kase hindi nga pwedeng lahat mag-stay.

I also learned to be thankful still even we've gone through to a not so good parting timjs or separation or break ups because without those people, you won't feel the happiness you're looking for. Its just that no one and nothing is permanent that's why we lose anything even everything.

I listened to a DJ on the radio last night when I was in the Bus riding towards to work....He was talking to a lady caller sharing her story regarding his boyfriend. They're talking about losing a relationship. The DJ said that, "Be loved by who you are and what you have. No matter how careless you are or even you do things against your bf's will, he will still love you because he loves you and he loves you because its you. On the other hand, no matter how you sacrificed, even you do and give everything to the person you love, if he/she really wants to destroy you, fool you, cheat on you, he/she will have the determination and courage to do that..and lie hard." That's a good advice though. After that i just smiled. Life is tough and is tougher if you're weak and does not know how to handle your self. Life is bigger than anything on this world but don't forget that you hold on your life, its you who carries it. So, You'll still have the biggest hands to protect it, empower it, and take care of it..

and with an old friend that i met again, i spare a little time and to those good people who still stay. I promised to myself not to deprive myself again for giving time for those people who appreciates little things from me.  and for those who not, i don't hate them..in fact I want them to stay. For what reason, because they have they're own life to deal with. This world is not mine anyway, this is for everyone. Things are in their proper places and i think this is one of the reasons why I'm happy with my life now.