wierd..but i like the song

it was wierd...when i woke up earlier in the morning, i ...i ended up thinking a song in my mind...its faithfully by journey. i realized that, that was the song playing while i was dreaming. it was the last music i listened to before i fell to sleep. i love the song though

Since the only time I see you near

                                   Is when I close my eyes

                                     Should I keep it that way

                                                  The only way I can make you stay

The Last Note

jak

time ticks too fast like a gold compass that doesn't know where to place its two hands. they go far apart but  what they really want is to be together just like my too arms wanting to embrace you. whispering drops of rain keep on pouring as i heard the flocks dragging in the highway. at last, words from the majesty was uttered. if i'm an ordinary person, i would believe on every poets' saying that actions are better than words..indeed. but i am an extraordinary human understands that faith never fails. if it did, it's fate.

if its easier things to happen than just to dream

I remembered you seven times on the same day. Seven times of not forgetting you. Seven times that brings back my first sweetest day. I left each candle flamed coz I want to blow them with you while saying, "Love, its been quite a while when we started this blessing to grow. And I never felt this way before. I am happy with you because that's you and no one else. I'm contented coz you are everything to me. We have forgotten each other sometimes, the importance of having each other for numerous times but I still can't resist loving you. Love thank you for staying... that even though things happened unexpectedly you never left me. I won't give up just because we don't understand each other..just because of our differences..just because we tend to be week at times..just because we have friends..just because sometimes we're not happy together. That's why we stay coz those are the reasons why we find ways to strengthen each other, reminding each other how beautiful we are in the likeness of God, that no matter how time come fast and we realize we're getting older, we still hold each others hands, looking at the mirror while saying...you are the most beautiful thing God given me."

If things are just easy to do than to say... to do than to just dream hopelessly...

This is the seventh...I may not be thinking as big as the sun, but all big things starts from small...and i have faith, our candle light will grow bigger than the biggest fire ever existed if it will, even i'm not doing anything

naalala na naman kita. tila bumabalik ang dati. panalanging sana matikmang muli ang tamis ng iyong mga ngiti. nananabik ako sa paguwi upang makasama ka. pipiliting hindi kumain para makasabay ka. yayakapin ka. hahagkan ang iyong tainga. at ibubulong sayo "mahal na mahal kita".  habang hinahaplos ang buhok mo, nakasandal ang iyong ulo sa kabila kong braso. paguusapan natin ang mga plano. yayakapin kita...napakasarap marinig na mahal mo ako. oo ako na ang pinakamasayang tao sa buong mundo. hindi ka man perpekto. pero sapat ka na para masabi kong ako'y kompleto. 

ayan ka na naman sa isipan ko. sa pagsapit ng gabi, nakahanda na ako sa yakap mong mahigpit. ang lamig ng gabi ay di alintana sa init ng iyong lambing. sabay tayong mananalangin, "ama, salamat sa biyaya" salamat dahil akin siya. wala nang iba.. pangangarapin ka araw at gabi. masaya man o hindi, sayo pa rin ako uuwi.

mamahalin na lang kita sa paraang alam ko. sa paraang alam kong hindi ka susuko. idadaan ko sa pangarap. idadaan ko sa kanta. maaari rin namang sa tula..kahit ano pa.. idadaan ko sa puso nang maramdaman mo na minahal kita at minamahal ng buung buo. kahit ikaw na lang.......at ako..at wala na ang "tayo"

Fact

We will die soon. But our love will live forever. No one and nothing's gonna take it from us

bakit di ko maamin sa iyo

bakit di ko maamin sa iyo?
ang tunay na awitin ng loob ko
di ko nais mabuhay pa kung wala sa piling mo
ngunit di ko pa rin maamin sa iyo
di malaman ang sasabihin pag kaharap ka
ngunit nililingon naman pag dumaraan na
ang laking pagkakamali kung di nya malalaman
sa awitin kong ito ipadaraan
at kung ako'y lumipas at limot na
ang awitin kong ito'y alala ka
awitin ng damdamin ko sayo maiiwan
sa pagbulong ng hangin ng ating nakaraan

yakapin mo lang ako...sapat na para malaman kong mahal mo pa rin ako

tula_y

hahagkan kita, maaari ba?
susuyuin ka't yayakapin na parang akin ka
ilang oras na lang ba'ng natitira
bukas, baka ako'y kunin na

natatakot na ako nagyo'y nagiisa
nararapat ba na ako'y di mo na makita?
ang isang araw tila baga isang taon
tumatakbo, tumatakbo ang panahon
walang tigil..walang pagudlot

napapalibutan naman ako ng sigla't tuwa
pero bakit ika'y hindi kasama?
sumumpa hindi ba na hindi mawawala?
pero ang sumpa ang nawala at nanatili ang "bakit ba?"

patungo na ako sa bayang buhay
puno ng pagkakataon at pagasa
nakikita ka pa rin at naaalala
pero ala naman akong magawa
kundi sariwain na lamang ang aking diwa

kung muli mang ako'y magmamahal
aba't sana'y madali hangga't wala ng pagaalinlangan
puso ko'y iisa lang
iisa pa rin ang nilalaman

bukas ako'y maaaring wala na
bukas di natin alam baka ako'y di na hihinga
ngunit bukas...bawat bukas sa akin ay pagasa
sasabihin ko pa ring mahal kita kahit mukang huli na

kapag namimis mo ko...puntahan mo lang pinaka dulo ng pahinang to.. makikita mo ako

just read the lines...not the letters

no matter how hard i stop

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i'm still moving

the calling

it was last week when up kj texted me out of nowhere asking how I was. pero nakapagreply na ako kinabukasan. the truth is, i really don't know what to say pero sa loob ko gusto ko siyang makausap. so i replied. i told her what i've seen on tv about our business. honestly, mas napalyo at natakot akong gawin yung pinasukan ko. pero the time when she texted hindi lang naman yun yung pumasok sa isip ko. i remebered a lot of learnings from this person when I was starting then. we had a little talk. i told her i missed her and up rico and the rest of the gang =). sino ba namang makakalimot sa mga taong nakakasama mo halos araw araw at hindi nagsawang pagsabihan at turuan ka ng mabubuting karunungan? kahit sino, hindi makakalimot sa taong yun.. through think and thin.

there was a summer on saturday and so sad that i can't attend, i have a shift. too bad. but we promised to meet up on my first day off and we did. i was surprised when i saw jay mark with up kj. they were inside the lecturing room with up rico in front. i sat behind the audience as they speechlessly listening to the first multi-millionaires club member. right there and then, everything flashed back on me.

still the same clap that i shared, yowling, replies...its was awesome!!! exactly the lecture was about to finish when i arrived, then we went down. I went straight to the point asking up kj how was gfi after the raid. amazingly it was just nothing. truth prevailed. then i just noticed i felt like a goosebumps on both of my arms. why? i'll tell you later.

napasarap kwentuhan namin ni jay mark and up kj when up ck showed up. alam mo yung pakiramdam na eto na ulit..unti unting nabubuo ulit kami. seeing their faces full of happiness and excitement. then biglang dumating si up roxy when she was surprised seeing me standing there and she uttered, i miss you tapos bigla nya akong niyakap. ang sarap nung pakiramdam na, may nakakamiss din pala sakin.. hehe..knowing that we never had the chance to bond and tell stories a lot. then kwentuhan lang kami nila up kj. she discussed to me some good changes and improvements gfi is taking. tas biglang nagaya si up rico kumain. paalis na dapat kami ni jay pero sige...minsan lang naman kami nagkakasama.

BAU..business as usual.. i've absorb a lot of powerful words from the couple and hindi ako nagsisising nagstay pa ako saglit. maraming bagong kwento pero alam mo ba yung masarap sa kwentuhan and sharing namin, lahat ng turo nila nood kumokonekta sa teachings nila nagyon.. and of all the powerful phrases i'd like the best that i remebered is this, say it simple, say it clear:

i am sorry

forgive me

thank you

i love you.

shocks...bigla ko napangiti nung naalala ko to. si up rico talaga. sa kwentuhan namin, parang walang nagbago. ganun pa rin ang hagikgik ni up kj. mas lumakas pa nga eh. haaayy...i think its a calling from him up there!

and speaking of calling, mabalik lang tayo dun sa kinilabutan ako. don't you know, for more than 5 minutes akong kinilabutan habang nakikipagkwentuhan kina up kj sa parking area? do you see my list of goals on the right part? I wrote those down last week ago. sabi ko kasi sa sarili ko, i should start all over again.. with new hopes and and more dreams. and i really like to achive all of them. few days after, that's when up kj txted me asking how i was....bigla kong naisip, bakit biglang kumalabit ulit sa akin itong gfi knowing the fact kung gaano ko kagusto makuha ung nasa goal list ko. i just thought the positive way. i think its a calling and wala namang masama kung pagtatrabahuan ko yung pinasok ko.  pareho lang pala kami ng naramdaman ni jay mark na its a calling. what's good about that, e ung ininvest ko andun pa rin.. waiting for me to make it bigger. kung iisipin ko hindi nasayang ung perang nainvest ko kasi, i have a family like them, the good stories i've made with them, the experience i've gone thru with them and the learnings. bonus pa yung mga taong nakilala ko dito. and i think gfi will make us more stronger and bonded. i'm sure it will come. i'll just hold on to my faith