i want: 2011

Sunday, November 6, 2011

can't wait

katatapos lang ng inuman... ngayon ko lang ulit nabuksan tong diary ko. nakainom na rin. next time a-araw arawin kita pag may internet na ako.. papahinga na lang muna ako ngayon. borlogs!

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

is it worth it?

my story goes when i met a friend..an old known friend

we we're special friends

we had our time before but we failed to make it

we separated ways with anger and hurt..

few months after we we're able to fix the broken heart and feelings.

we became friends again

we talked once in a while, once in a blue moon as opportunity knocks

and then everything became promising

we planned to see again but roughly not as a chance

then unexpectedly one day

our same soul met

much of the excitement unlike the first

we felt warm with each other

we started talking like civil people though

then conversation kept on going back to the past

we shared secrets and the laughter and pain

probably fishing happened but nonetheless more of getting each others trust

i know, we don't want the day end like that

we continued the night together

jumped in a cozy lodge

became warmer and friendlier

found arms wrapped with each other

eyes started glancing like the world is ours

everything was too fast

then secs after, our warm lips leaned on each other

that night, i gave my heart

i felt my soul gave in to as well

my heart, i gave it whole

i gave my all

that night.....that night with you

Maybe you're wondering why there are people who seem to be happy all the time..looks like they don't even have a scratch of problem. sometimes you're jealous with people who have everything even some of them don't deserve to be in their places. and then you're start thinking, why them, why not me or vice versa. some of us will curse or blame others for not having or being what we want. what's worst? some blame God...and some, doesn't recognize him at all.

my point here is not actually discussing about religious matters. i strongly believe that whatever happens to us, whoever we become are all because of what we choose to have and to be. is there a destiny? i don't know- there may be.. but also maybe depends on how we decide on things for our self. it's also true that opportunity comes along. its not luck, opportunity becomes luck when you choose it and manage it successfully. still, that opportunity that may bring changes to your life depends on 2 things, yes or no. the bottom line is, we still choose.

how do people manage to be happy, and abundant, and alive in spite of tragedies, failures, mistakes, rejections and all negative stuff? i'll tell you, they're not happy at all. sometimes you need to fake it, to make it. not all Hollywood stars are lucky with their lives. that's why we found some of them commit suicide, adultery, theft, and unlawful acts. not all businessmen are wealthy and has big bucks in their savings. always remember that the bigger assets, the bigger the debt. not all famous and beautiful people are real, that's why the fad is plastic surgery and adobe. not all influential people are powerful, they just have connections.

see how our world is different? physical appearance doesn't imply what's inside because it's inside. but what's inside can show us what's the real outside.

it is true that not all poor people are nothing. poverty and destitution means an opportunity for all of us. what's the next level for people who has the highest position in their jobs, or rankings in an organization, or level in world's richest people? NOTHING! which means whatever they do, two things may only happen, stay in their place or go down..to the deepest down. and when they go down, that means losing everything.

people with nothing, doesn't need to be jealous, nor consider their selves as useless that's unethical. i can consider myself as poor. coz all things that i possess are all borrowed to him...up there. all i need to do and all we need to do is to learn how to flip things over. what i mean is, we are all equal. if elite people can smile..we can too. famous people are treated so special, we deserve to be treated same way. high-ranking officials have protection and power, we deserve more than them because we are civilians. sometimes, it's just the way we think and the way our perceptions work. if we you see yourself as weak or nothing, just ordinary, hen that's the end of your story. do not expect changes. but if you start thinking and saying to yourself that you will be what you want to be then there's a promise. potential comes when there's theory. all we need are proof and capabilities...mathematics.

we can be what we want to be and being poor or nothing at all is not a hindrance on one's success. just learn how to play things safely and healthy. no need to use people for an advantage just use resources that is not against human and God's law. you can say, this idea is stupid or extremely hard to achieve, yeah maybe..but who told you? who's stopping you? if people we're able to reach moon..it means it's possible. so people became rich, famous, powerful, all of these are possible to you, and to all of us coz they already happened to others not because of luck but because that's what they chose to be. again, you just need to learn how to flip things over. if you're poor, nothing, disabled, or anything, flip yourself over and be what you want to be. easy to say but its easier if you act on it. dreams are associated with fantasies because they really don't happen. it will only become reality if there's an action.

plans...goals.. they're just stepping stones but will not be accomplished if there's no action. feelings, idea, knowledge, won't go anywhere if you do nothing to them. that's why life is described as anything that breathes, move, multiply...coz if not? of course that's dead..not moving, no actions, no response. DEAD. are you dead? so move and flip things over and be happy for the rest of your life

nakakapagod

minsan mas okay din ang maging mahina..

kasi mas nakikilala mo sarili mo

kapag malakas ka, pakiramdam mo kaya mo lahat

wala kang kapaguran

positibo ang pananaw mo sa buhay

wala kang nakikitang pangit, puro maganda at masaya

madapa ng isa, dalawa, o kahit ilan pa

walang pahi-pahinga

tayo agad, diretso ang lakad

minsan pa nga, tumatakbo pa para lang mauna

pero ngayong araw na to' gusto kong maramdaman ang pagod

nakikita ko kasi na hindi sa lahat ng oras tama ako

hindi laging tama ang mga naiisip ko

na nagkakamali rin pala ako

nakakasakit

nakakalimot sa iba at sa sarili

gusto kong mapagod kasi gusto ko namang magpahinga

yun ba'ng huminto man lang ang oras, ang mundo

at gawin ang talagang gusto ko

gusto kong makilala ang sarili ko

gusto kong malaman kung ano ang dapat ant hindi para as akin

ngayon, napagod ako

umiyak

natalo

natakot

nanghihina

nangangailangan

parte naman kasi ng buhay mga iyan.

pumapalakpak ang mga kamay ko sa mga taong milya milya ang narating

di ma-abot na pwesto sa itaas

nakakainggit na kayamanang taglay

pero, sa tingin ko mas nakakangiti ako sa kanila

kasi kahit papano, mas naramdaman ko yung kapayapaan

nakuha ko yung katahimikan

nayakap ko kung ano ang kulang sa akin

nakita ko kung ano ang mga mali sa akin

natanggap ko ang sarili ko nang buo

minahal ko kung ano ang meron at wala ako

kaya kahit wala ako ng lahat..kaya kong mag-taas noong nakatingin sa kanila

ng walang inggit

o masamang hangarin

ni mang-gaya ng estado

nangyari lahat...nung napagod ako

Monday, January 17, 2011

i'll be a traveller too..with a dsl cam in my pocket

I was looking for a perfect place to hang out with my workmates...for a team building.. when i met this guy named Marcos. I'm not sure if his from Iloilo..but i got amazed with his work.. he's a traveler and a photographer-- a working compliment as he moves out from one place to another, not really looking for a place to stay, but to promote how beautiful our own place is. I liked his personality, coz he has the courage to move with the flow of his life not because that its his destiny but because that's what he wants to happen in his life. To tell you honestly, I' haven't got the chance to know him more or ask questions how he was able to do his profession, how was it from scratch to a traveler..i mean when I said scratch, no experience...I don't know if he's that rich but the point is, from nothing..to wanting.

When I was too young then, I really wanted to go out...and see places I've never been to. Aside from being locked up from ignorance, denied from a proper guidance, and a follower from all of my fears, I was brought to my curiosity to try things more on breaking the rules. Whatever those...just ask me secretly. (laughed)

I'm grown up now and still needs to grow..and part of my wish lists is to travel..try new foods, meet new faces and culture. (smiled) I'm praying that one day i'll be like Marcos too... a true traveler... by heart

i'll go for Samsung vs. iPhone 4

Aside from the fact that its cheaper, Samsung has one of the very promising smart phones ever made. Who would deny Samsung's unbeatable high qualiformace (quality & performance) resolutions when it comes to their lcd tvs...?? now, it can be seen on phones. Not mentioning the other unbreakable features like its sensor and camera...In fairness, compared to their previous Samsung phones, the Waves' & Galaxy's cam is remarkable.

HD phones are good, only when the file you will play is also HD....so why not get that Samsung and enjoy pix and vid clips either on standard or high def..? It's a matter of a smart choice. Plus, the price dropped . Believe..or not!