what a wonderful world

its my dream place... grabe sobrang aliwalas at sarap sa pkiramdam to be here... maglalakad... tatakbo... gugulung-gulong... tatambay... sun bathing? di na kailangan..moreno n to... titingin tingin sa mga foreigner (kung meron)... maghahanap ng fine dining restaurant or eatery... titikman ang specialty nila... best selling drinks and desserts... name it and eat it.. gagawin mo lahat na parang walang bukas... hihintayin ang paglubog ng araw..

you'll see the color of the sky... masasabi mo na lang sa sarili mo, balewala ang mga problema... then in a silent moment.. you pray... Thank you Lord for this wonderful Day... You helped me realize how wonderful to live and how wonderful this world you gave me... in spite of all the challenges i've faced and will face, I still think of you and an endless thanksgiving to you... ...... ......

pero teka..may kulang. di ba mas masarap kung may kasama...????

maglalakad ng may kasama.. hawak kamay.. tatakbo kayo.. pagulung-gulong... tatambay.. magku-kwnetuhan ng mga masasayang araw at kahit mga malulungkot na karanasan.. then after.. paguusapan mga pangarap sa buhay... endless conversation... kakain kayo sa isang exclusive restaurant.. titikman lahat ng masarap.. at after noon.. pupunta sa isang safe at magandang hotel or kwarto.. magpapahinga at magrerelax...  bukas.. ganito ulit...

wait mo lang ako wonderful world.. i'll be there without you knowing... we'll meet before the sunrise and we'll be together before the sunset...

araw araw kitang minamahal

di ko maimagine height mo
pano ka ba nakapasok sa puso ko?
buti na lang hindi ka napapagod
kanina ka pa kasi tumatakbo sa isip ko

kung pwede ka lang ipahuli sa pulis
ninakaw mo kasi ang puso ko
para ka kasing asukal
may ngiting kay tamis

di kita makalimutan
kasama ka na sa sitema ko
palagi akong nakangiti
palagi akong tulala

hindi naman ako ganito dati
normal lang ang buhay ko
paikut ikot na parang gulong
biglang lilitaw mamaya lulubog

pero ngayon laking pagbabago
di ko na rin makilala sarili ko
ngayon nakakalipad na ko
hanggang langit pa nga lundag ko

ano b'ang meron sayo?
di ako sanay na hindi kita nakikita
naiinis ako pag di kita katabi
hinahanap-hanap kita pag di kita kasama

gusto ko lagi lang akong nakayakap
gusto ko araw araw kitang tinititigan
gusto ko ang halimuyak mo
inaasam asam ko ang halik mo

mga nais ko habang kaasma kita
ang di na muna gumalaw ang araw
ang pagtigil ng oras
sana di na matapos ang gabi

kulang ang 24 oras kapag kasama kita
bitin ang kwentuhan kapag matutulog na
nakakapanghinayang ang gabi kapg tapos na
pero ikaw pa rin ang naaalala

araw araw kitang minamahal
araw araw din kitang yayakapin
pagsisilbihan kita
ibibigay ang lahat

sayo na ako tatanda at lilipas
hawak ang iyong kamay hanggang mahimlay
hindi ka iiwan kahit kailan
ikaw ang buhay ko...sayo lang ako

alay ko ang awit na gustung gusto ko
pakinggan mo't malalaman mo
kung ano ka sa akin
at kung ano na ako ngayon nang dahil sayo.

is it a failure for me or something to look forward to?

no one knows where d'you go...you threw your peices away like you don't wanna go back to where you came from..like you don't wanna see who you are. like you we're a different entity..like you've given up. Is that how strong you are? Is that the way you play?...just changing your mind..ur state that easy?  i thought I got you in an instant...then now i lost you that instant. no talk..no signs.. too difficult for me. do you feel the same way too...? if yes then where are you right now? why d'you left me alone so helpless, clueless, unprotected?...do you really care...or its all about yourself?

i don't understand..the moment we talked..you're so deep..but why you seem so shallow? i kept on asking these questions since you left me. you broke me worst than peices. I built my world but you destroyed. I started my journey but you put the boundery. I stood up but you let me fall. I smile but you took it away. You stole my heart and never gave back to me. You showed me the way and you lost me. You gave me hope, but you denied it...

Now, because of unclear mistakes...because of unforgettable past, you never recognized me anymore. You forgot how far we've gone..You now see me invisible...and now feel me don't.

This heartache, is just a reminder for me...but i'm still believing, that you'll show yourself to me. that you'll lend your hand to let me stand again. that you'll build my world again and let me continue my journey with you. that you 'll find me and give back my heart with yours. that you'll say.."i'm back", and you just change your path so i can be with you no matter what.

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indie films... what's in it for us.

ang akala ko noon, kapag sinabing indie film, its more on sex...tragedy, sex....rituals, sex....violence, and what else??? basta ang alam ko, pag indie film, hnd masyadong advisable ipanood sa bata...o kht sa isip bata..delikado..baka kung ano mabuo sa isip nila..

aware na rin ako na karamihan sa mga indie film na prinopromote dito sa tin tungkol sa kwento ng mga third-sex...bi-people...all about sex...love, sex...relationships, sex....challenges, sex....learnings.

I must admit, may mga ganitong palabas na sabing, maganda at may matututunan...may aral daw...kasama doon ung mga frontal nudity, nude scenes, laplapan, patungan, kiskisan ng kung anu-ano, init sa gabi, mga halinghing, agawan ng kalaguyo..tikiman power, at kung anu-ano pa...

minsan naisip ko, hindi ba pwedeng gumawa ng palabas ang mga Pilipino na wala masyadong obscene scenes or provocative na eksena...nakakawa kasi.. dahil kung iyon lang din ang nilalaman ng palabas, di wag nalang magpakitang tao...direcho porn movies na lang..

Naisulat ko lang itong pitak na ito concerning my opinion for what i have expirience with the subject. I'm not considering this as general ang I respect the opinion of others and their belief.

One day, i have watched one international indie film originated from Thailand and sobrang nagiba ang pananaw ko sa indie films. Ngayon, interesado akong mangulekta ng maraming indie films kasama ung sa mga banyaga and i'll make sure with sense.

Nagiba rin pananaw ko regarding third sex or with people who consider themselves as bisexuals...and I'm sure, I will gain respect through this.

Just wanna share this clip courtesy of Youtube...and if you wanna watch the entire movie, better buffer it with youtube website and you'll understand what i'm saying.. This film is entitled, "LOVE OF SIAM"

kay tagal...ano nang meron?

musta na blog ko?
tagal ko rin nawala..pero heto nagbabalik ako..
miss mo ko? ayos pa rin ba araw mo?..
ayos lang ako...natuto at nakatayo
maraming na rin nangyari sa mga nagdaang araw
saksi ako, kabilang ako..
bilib ako sa mga taong nakapaligid sa akin..
inakay at inalagaan nila ako..minahal at tinanggap ng buung-buo.
kaya naman di na nagdalawang isip na ibigay kung anong meron ako
dito para kaming iisa..pamilya..
hindi ko sila ipagpapalit
hnd mangyayaring makalimutan sila..
sapagkat, parte sila ng buhay ko
mawawala lang sila, kapag wala na ako..

wala lang

Today is Septemner 9, 2009-- if we transalte it to a numerical date.. it will show as 09/09/09.

that is 9, 9, 9..  i'm not pretty sure where my idea came from but i have read some books regarding numbers and destiny...cz when we add the 3 digits which is 9+9+9, it will give us a sum of 27.

and when we add 2 and 7, that will give us a sum of 9.

As far as i know, the number 9 is considered as a lucky number.

For people who happened to have their birthday today..for the number 9,

1.) Usually this number produces an individual that is very trustworthy and honorable, and one unlikely to harbor any sort of prejudice.
2.) The 9, being the highest of the single digit numbers, holds an elevated position in terms of responsibilities to mankind.
3.) The rare 9 life path has a totally selfless attitude, giving up of material possessions for the common good.
4.) The 9 Life Path indicates you have a commanding presence. You have the ability to make friends very easily, as people are attracted to your magnetic, open personality.
5.) The 9 Life Path indicates you have a commanding presence. You have the ability to make friends very easily, as people are attracted to your magnetic, open personality.
6.) You tend to be quite sensitive, as you see the world with much feeling. The number 9's very deep understanding of life is sometimes manifested in the artistic and literary fields
7.) The purpose of life for those with a 9 life path is often of a philosophical nature. Judges, spiritual leaders, healers and educators frequently have much 9 energy. The number is less inclined to the competitive business environment and may find this a struggle.

As do all the life path numbers, the 9 has its negative side. Because of the demanding nature of the truly positive 9, many tend to fail in this category. It is not uncommon for persons with the 9 life path to fight the realities and challenges of purpose imposed here because selflessness is not an easy trait. You may have difficulty believing that giving and a lack of personal ambition can be satisfying. It must be realized and accepted that little long-term satisfaction and happiness is to be gained by rejecting the natural humanitarian inclinations of this path.


Today, some of us may feel sensitive to some things...it is also perfect to make a wish for something that is attainable for you to get and you will surely have it. Some of us may expirienece peace of mind, happiness and properity...Today may also bring us love and passion...

Lastly, don't forget God...he is the possibilities.

Its raining..

I consider rain as one of the best highlights of all the seasons..why? cz for me, it cleanses the dirt scattered in the streets..it maintains tolerable temperature...it help plants and trees to be fed...it distributes water to different places...it also contribute to the stages of rock formation... these are just some of the good benefits of the rain..

 

I remember, when i was a kid..i used to play with my friends in the rain..my mom won't allow me to...but i don't mind..rain is good. it feels good. i feel i'm safe..i know i'm safe

sometimes, its frustrating when i want to come out on the rain but there's a thunder that sounds like a monster..fear is with me though..sometimes i go out.. sometimes i don't

they said, its very dangerous to play in the rain...you might get sick..or what so ever...but for me life is too short to think of what life may bring to me..I believe, God sent rain as a sign of his blessings..

Have you ever thought that with rain, you will feel the warm that you need?.. and its best when you share the moment not exactly to your partner but also to the one special to you..

some people, expiriencing sad moments when it rains..i find it very difficult to put myself into their shoes to feel it... i still see rain as good as it is..

Today is sept 9, 2009 at exactly 9:52 am in my clock..perfect coz its raining.. and you know what..?i feel depressed..i don't know where this sadness is coming from..its just like i don't want to here the sound of the pouring rain.. the sound of the blowing wind.. the sound of silence in me.. it seems i'm lost.. i don't know where to go.. i don't know where to hide...

i don't want to cry..but my eyes want to burst out and cry like a pouring rain...now, i'm afraid the rain..cz i feel the pain..but i don't have a choice. like what i've said, life is too short..i'll face it and i won't wail. until i see again the picture of a good and happy rain..

the waiting room

"I don't feel like having lunch. I am not hungry."
"You need to have your lunch, Grandma. We all do."
"Just tell them I am asleep and that you couldn't wake me up."
"You go get some more sleep then we'll both have lunch later."
"We?"
"Yes, Grandma. You and me."
"You're not easy to get along with. Did you know that?"
"Yup! So we better eat."
"I can sleep now and wake up the next day."
"No doubt about it. Yes, you can."
"Haha! You know I always say the truth."

She does. And I know, too that she means whatever she says.

"I am so tired. It's like I have been shoveling coal the whole day."
"Coal, Grandma? You're still using coal?"
"Yes, for the furnace. In New York, some old apartment houses still use that."
"Oh. But then again, maybe you're just tired from reading the papers. You need to rest your eyes."
"Maybe tired... from living."

just nothing

"Would it be great if we could just push a button then we'll be brought straight to bed? I am just so lazy to stand up here." Grandma said, while she's in the bathroom.
"Or maybe just by thinking about it, whatever we want to do, will be done. How's that, Grandma?" I asked while trying to figure out if what they have are ceramic tiles.
"Oh! You're lazy!"
"See? You're better than me, Grandma."  ^^,

this better explains: When you love someone

When you love someone - you'll do anything
You'll do all the crazy things that you can't explain
You'll shoot the moon - put out the sun
When you love someone

You'll deny the truth - believe a lie
There'll be times that you'll believe that you can really fly
But your lonely nights - have just begun
When you love someone

When you love someone - you'll feel it deep inside
And nothin else can ever change your mind
When you want someone - when you need someone
When you love someone...

When you love someone - you'll sacrifice
You'd give it everything you got and you won't think twice
You'd risk it all - no matter what may come
When you love someone
You'll shoot the moon - put out the sun
When you love someone

New Learnings

"i burnt my tongue on you..now i've lost all sense of taste or decency"

"hatred strips up dissensions but love cover all wrongs"

"my love is an addiction, if we cling, our love is strong"

"when i fall in love, i find ways out of nothing"

"i wonder how we can survive, this romance...but in the end if i'm with you i'll take the chance.."

bakit ganyan ka?

hindi kita maintindihan ba't nagkakaganyan ka... may pinahihiwatig ka ba o wala lang. nahihirapan ako sa mga ikinikilos mo... alangan namang ako ang lumapit at unang makipagusap sayo...minsan natatakot akong pansinin ang mga ipinapakita mo....malay ko ba kung mali lang ang iniisip ko. isa pa hindi pa kita lubos na kilala. ayoko ng ganito..bumibigat pakiramdam ko..naguguluhan ako sayo.. kung meron kang gustong ipahiwatig o sabihin, sanay may lakas ka ng loob na panindigan yon...hindi ko masasabi kung ang lahat ng ito'y wala lang talaga at wala lang sayo.....o sadyang nagkakahulugan na tayo ng loob


..................."ang nasa isip ni inay nung hindi pa sila ni itay"

Part 2

Kasalanan ko ba?

you can't blame me if i'm falling for you...masisisi mo ba ko kung sobrang gaan ng loob ko sayo? hnd ko rin naman kasalanan kung gusto kita laging makita at makasama... pero bkt feeling ko mali ginagawa ko... natanong ko na nga rin sa sarili ko, "tama pa ba tong ginagawa ko?". pero ang damdamin ko tinuturo sakin na ituloy ko lang to.. wala naman masama sa ginagawa ko.. pero ba't parang nagmumuka na akong gago.. muka akong naghahabol sayo..di naman kita ganun ka kilala.. ano bang pinakain mo sa akin at nagkakaganito ko sayo? ikaw ang dahilan bat di ako makatulog..minsan wala nang ganang kumain...ito ba mabuting epekto mo...o sadyang nahulog na talaga ako sayo???


................"ang pinagdaanan ni itay nung nakilala nya si inay"

Part 1

ang gulo

bkt ganun??? nung isang araw lng ang, gaan ng lahat para sa akin... inspire na inspire ako... feeling ko ang taba taba ng puso ko sa sobrang tuwa. pakiramdam ko binuhusan ako ng sangkaterbang positive aura.. pero ba't ganito ko ngayon...? soooooooooobrang bigat ng pakiramdam.. parang gusto kong umiyak na lang. binagsakan yata ako ng sandamakmak na negatibong enerhiya,,. haaay ayoko na maging ganito. badtrip..badtrip talaga... ='(

Ano ba gusto mo sa buhay mo?

Ako? Ang yakap mo.... @)-,----

                                                            
                                                                               ...at ang makasama ka palagi (",)

I..have pictures of you in my mind

One of the Best things in life...is having friends...

Sunshine through my window.. that's what you are..

My shining star...

making me feel i'm on top of the world

Telling me that i'll go far

I think you are a diamond..

When you're near...your hair, i wanna smell it..touch it like i've never touched any hair before. Everytime I look at your face.. I want to stare to your eyes..your meaningful eyes so you could see the real me..that i want to wipe away your tears everythime you feel sad...
T h o s e s o f t c u t e c h e e k s.. if i can only feel yours with mine..the smoothness of it..the warm of it and never be apart...
your nose? your lovely nose, inspires me that i can be me no matter how worst i can be. I feel you breathing with me. and Down to your lips..those kissable lips.. i have the desire of touching it so i can feel you and so to let you know that no words can express this unexplanable feelings that i have. How lucky the person who could kiss you so sweet. with the breath you're taking out making me crazy to take it in, imagining face to face we sing the song of our life.

I think you are a diamond...

the thought of you kept creeping in my mind. and see? til I close my eyes to go to sleep, I see nothing!





nothing
         but
              you.

How wonderful you are..

Do you think i'm falling?

Resemblance of Mirror in my Life

How can mirrors give back the same and exact reflection as we face them??? Does mirror need time to process before they can show what they need to reflect? Why it doesn't need to buffer before appearances show perfectly? Well, I have no special research about it but at one point, how wonderfull to think that I can relate myself to it.

Mirrors are used everywhere. It brought many purposes so it became known to be useful to mankind. It is use for lifestyle, for protection, for reflection, for art, as part of interior design, and many to mention.


Just like mirror, I show people the same reflections as what they do.. It might take time for me to reflect easily, most of the time, I give back more than what they can perceive. This only happens when the right process is being done in my brain with my emotions. Sometimes, I tend to be aloof, having fear of what I can show them and the fear of what I can give back depending on the attitude they have.


Literally, if you treat me nice and you let me feel I’m important, that no any kind of discrimination therein, you'll see good reflections from me. On the other hand, showing me unpleasant character will process the same in my head. In some situations, i manage to adjust..no patience required..but, when you stepped in to my comfort zone...the things stored in my mind will easily reflect how you acted in front of me especially when you directly acted on me. There would still be patience and respect that may apply only when I allow trespass…or there's a permission asked before stepping in to my comfort zone. However, it’s a big sorry if you hit me with no perfect reason to do so.

When you are so negative, you'll see reflections as negative as well. This is touching the thought of "Law of Attraction"


I am so open to people from coming into my life no matter what they're intentions are, just like mirror that no restrictions or requirement of who can only see them self in front of it. People who just come and go to your life and doesn't know the essence of "staying" are people who are careless. If that's the case,When it comes to mirrors, the higher the probability for them not to be handled carefully and it will be broken..and no matter how hard people try to fix it? Mirror will still be broken. No other thing can bring it back exactly as it is.


In real life, I can trust anyone, people who are showing the intention of friendship or partnership, and I don't choose. But once you broke me, in chess, that's what we call "touch move". I accept apologize..I’m not that hard. It’s just that, "I forgive, but I don't forget". Worst thing that can happen is to forget you. I don't want "sorry's" to be mentioned again and again when there's no improvement of not committing the same mistake.


If that happens, you can always buy another mirror so you can use another one. In life, you can always find someone to be with...but you know what? You can never have the same feeling that you had with the first person you've been with. Situations might happen again, that's why they said, "History repeats itself" but the difference will be, the new person you're with while facing whatever the situation is is totally not the same.


How does it feel for you to lose someone and thinking that there will always be another one for a replacement? You can take these words so you could understand the importance of someone who became special to you,


"Don't be too busy looking for pebbles coz you might lose your only Diamond one day"


I'd rather lose pebbles than sacrificing my diamond. So, in relation to me and to the mirror, be always nice.. You may never know, the person you are dealing with right now is your personal mirror who's ready to accept all things about you and will still reflect good even if you don't.

I got you in an instant

Magkaibigan na tayo...

biruin mo, hindi naman tayo magkakilala pero tinanggap mo ako.. do you have any idea how much happy i am for having you?

naramdaman ko ung sarap na tinanggap ng buo.. alam ko nagsisimula pa lang tayo ngayon..pero ramdam ko lumipas man ang mga taon..magkasama pa rin tayo.

Each and every day that i see you, gives me the reason not to be apart with you. The span of weeks made me feel we're friends for years. The thoughts we've shared made me think how deep we are. The learnings we receive make us strong as we go along.

I know for a fact that there are still things you'll find out about me sooner or later, masama man o mabute, hawak ka lang sa akin ng maige...we'll walk together as we face change. We'll run together as fast as we can so we won't be left behind and we'll hide if we need to so that i can protect you from being hurt. Lampasan natin mga pagsubok..and i'm so sure, we will reach the place where we want to be.

Tiwala ka lang sa akin..Yung lang kasi ang panghahawakan ko para masabi kong may naniniwala sa akin..na kaya kitang mahalin higit pa sa buhay ko..kaya kong ibigay lahat ng makakaya ko.. kahit na,

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Ikaw ang buhay ko

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dati, normal ang buhay ko
kasama ko pamilya ko
kasama ko mga kaibigan ko
masaya naman ako sa buhay ko
kahit lahat nang gusto
di nakukuha ng kamay ko

pero nakukuha ko pa ring ngumiti kahit papaano
kuntento naman ako
sa kung anong meron ako
sa kung sino ako
masaya na ako
basta’t alam ko na mahal ako
ng kahit sino

kung sinu-sino na nga nakilala ko
marami rami na rin dumaan sa buhay ko
mga taong nagpahalaga sa pagkatao ko
mga taong nagmahal sa kung sino ako

mga taong tanggap kahit mga pagkatalo ko

may mga oras
na wala akong kasama pag may laban akong nananalo

nakakapagtampo
kapag ang nakikita lang sa akin ng tao
ay yung mga pagkakamali ko’t mga pagkakabigo



nung dumating ka at nakilala ko
buong mundo ko
ginulo mo
dahil naramdaman ko
nahulog ako sayo ng buong-buo

naging masaya tayo..
madalas magkasama
hirap at ginhawa
ikaw ang katabi ko

minahal kita ng husto

lalo na nung sabihin mo

"mahal mo na ako"

di nagtagal...
nasaktan lang ako
kasi iba ang pinapakita mo
yung mga ngiting dati ay sa akin mo ipinapakita
ngayo'y sa iba mo na nakukuha


balewala na lang siguro ako sayo
palagi na lang akong naghihitay sa pagdating mo
lagi kang wala kahit anino mo

may karapatan ba ako
na magtampo sayo?
manumbat ng mga bagay na pinaramdam mo?

siguro nga natalo ako
kasi ang hina ko
pero alam mo
nung dumating ka sa buhay ko
ung masayang mundo ko
sumaya lalo

kahit ganito lang ako
kaya kong ibigay lahat sayo
ung pagmamahal at respeto
na hindi kayang gawin at ibigay ng mga taong
akala mo
nadyan lagi at tapat sayo

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andito lang ako

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maghihintay pa rin sayo

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Sabi mo

Posted on June 13, 2005 by mrgorgeousmanfreelancer.
Categories: misery.
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nang minsang kasama kita
sinambit mo,
“importante ka sa akin”
ang hindi ko makakalimutan, yung linyang,
“mahal na kita”

naghintay ako…
kasi narinig kong sinabi mo, “hintayin mo ako”

kahit may iba akong mundo,
di kita iniwan
kasi narinig ko, ang sabi mo,
“wag mo akong iiwan”
kahit ilam beses mo akong iniiwan…

dahil sa mga narinig ko…
di mo ba alam?
di mo ba nararamdaman?
minahal kita nang husto
kaya kahit nararamdaman kong
balewala
lang
ako
sayo
d ako nagdaramdam

mas lalo pa kitang minahal

pero nalaman ko
d pala para sa akin mga narinig ko

kundi





para sa kanya

Kulang pa

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Categories: misery.
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iba ang magmahal…. masarap ang pakiramdam…
lagi kang nakalutang… lagi kang inspired… lagi
kang ganado… lagi kang masaya…. laging
maganda mood mo

minsan nakakagawa tayo ng mali nang hindi natin
namamlayan dahil nagmamahal tayo…

may pagkakataong ibinibigay natin ang dapat
hindi ibigay dahil sa pagmamahal…

dahil kontento na tayo sa kanila… hindi na tayo
huminhingi pa o nagdi-demand ng kung anu-ano…
ayos lang kahit wala silang masyadong
oras…kahit hindi na magtext…kahit mamatay ka
sa kakahintay ng text niya sa wala ayos pa rin..
hndi pa rin nagbago pagtingin mo sa kanya… kasi
nga “mahal na mahal mo siya”….

dahil mahal m siya…ayaw mong nahihirapan at
nasasaktan ang mahal mo… kaya kahit sayo
mismo nagkakasala o nagkakamali,
isinasawalang bahala mo lang.. dahil nga “mahal
mo siya”… kahit paulit-ulit pa silang magkamali
ayos lang.. kasi nga “mahal mo siya”…

lahat naman ibinigay mo… nagmuka na ka nang
masama sa bahay nyo… halos hindi ka na umuwi
ng bahay dahil gusto mo siyang makita at ayaw
mong sumbatan ka niya na wala kang oras sa
kanya…ayaw mo siyang magtampo at magsumat sayo na
katiting na oras na nga lang, hindi
mo pa maibigay…

mas may oras ka na nga sa kanya kaysa sa
pamilya mo.. pero kulang pa pala un.

kung sinu-sino na nagtatampo sayo…halos mga
kaibigan mo nakalimutan mo na….pamilya mo
nakalimutan mo na at di na inuuwian…ultimo
bestfriend mo ni text hindi mo na nagagawa at
nakakamusta….

lahat ng iyon nagawa mo dahil umikot mundo mo
sa kanya…sa kanya lang…
dahil nga mahal na mahal mo siya…

sa sobrang pagmamahal mo.. halos handa mo
nang siyang ipakilala at ang relasyon nyo sa
pamilya mo.

pero tangina ni hindi ko lubos maisip na hindi na
pala nagwo-workout relasyon nmin….

akala ko masaya siya sa setup namin..akala ko
gusto niya ako.. akala ko mahal niya nga ako…
akala ko…akala ko….akala ko anghel nga siya ng buhay ko

kulang pa pala ang oras na ginugol ko kasama
siya….kulang pa pala ung effort ko na ibinigay ko
na lahat sa kanya na wala na ako halos itinira para sa
akin…kulang pa pala ung halos hindi na ako
umuwi ng bahay makasama lang siya…kulang pa
pala ung halos araw-araw akong magparamdam
sa kanya.. magtext, tumawag at magtelebabad…kulang pa pala ako

sa tuwing napapadaan ako ng simbahan at kahit
sa pagsimba mismo, palagi akong
nagpapasalamat sa taas kasi nga binigyan nya
ako ng anghel… binigyan niya ako ng ngiti…
ipinaramdam niya sa akin kung ano ang
pagmamahal..at kung paano magmahal

palagi ko siyang ipinagdarasal…palagi kong
ipinapanalangin na sana tulungan niya kaming
mapagtibay ang relasyon namin…palagi akong
nagpapasalamat sa kanya dahil dumating ang
isang angel sa buhay ko…

haaayyyy…. pero wala eh… pakiramdam ko
napaglaruan ako… pakiramdam ko naglalaro lang
pala ako ng hindi ko alam game over na…

ang dami kong pangarap..ang dami kong gustong
gawin…kasama siya dun eh…kasi nga mahal ko
siya. mahal na mahal.

pero wala akong kwenta eh..kulang pa ako…

kaya iniwanan ako.

Perhaps

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Posted on June 22, 2005 by mrgorgeousmanfreelancer.
Categories: Uncategorized.
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Perhaps all of the sweetest words and expressions are already been said and done to you.
For so many times, I said to you,

I miss you

I love you

Take Care

I miss you so much

I love you so much

I thank God he let me have someone like you

Thank you

I’m sorry

I love you very, very much

Your are my life

You’re the love of my life

I’ll never let you go

I’ll never leave you

I’ll be there for you

You’re my angel

You’re one of my precious gifts

I’m so lucky for having you

I’m so blessed for having you

831

*hugz*

…………….

………………………….

……………..

And now, I find it very, very difficult to construct other words to say it to you.


No words now can put my feelings and expressions into real.




But there is something in my mind


And I don’t even know if its perfect enough to say how much I love you….








you know what?…..












I wanna grow old with you… @)-,----

dahil mahal kita

Posted on July 15, 2005 by mrgorgeousmanfreelancer.
Categories: misery.
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bakit kaya ang hirap…..?
bakit kaya ang bigat…..?
gan0n ba talaga pag di mo maipakita at maiparamdam ang nararamdaman mo sa taong minamahal mo?
pakiramdam na ayaw mong maramdaman dahil lang sa simpleng nararamdaman ng puso mo..

alam mo ba? gusto kitang alagaan
gusto kitang protektahan
gusto ko lagi kang masaya
lagi kitang nakikita at nababantayan

sa dami ng gusto kong gawin para sayo..iisa lang naman ang dahilan kung bakit,

dahil mahal kita.

Undone

Posted on August 18, 2005 by gorgeousmanfreelancer.
Categories: songs for you
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how can i explain?
i see colors in the rain..
all was blue, black, white and green
just like in my dreams

h0w can i say?
these feelings kept in pain..
all i did is watching you,
with that it made me blue..

when i close my eyes
all i can see is just a smile.
a smile that could launch a thousand ships
a smile i saw from you.

how can i show?
this love that can't let go..
if this would be my sacrifice,
i'll do it without a pride.

to him i always pray,
that you with me will stay.
i can face the world without a scare
if i know your always there

no one can replace
the you, the one remains
in my heart and in my whole life through
i thank god cz i found you

i want to be so fair
i won't ask you a for dare
if you don't feel anything for me
don't worry cz this is not rare

i'm not forcing you to do things
for me to understand..
i already know my limit
cz i know i'm not your care.

posted aug 18, 2005 @9:05am- edited march 22, 2009 @1:19am

Retrieving my old Missives

Posted on February 17, 2007 by mrgorgeousmanfreelancer.
Categories: Uncategorized. (From my Friendster Blog: Sensitivity)
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ayoko magisip..
ayoko magalit..
pero hnd pa tayo nagkakamabutihan..
nagawa m nang magsinungaling..

i don’t know, pero i think i should not care like this
kasi hnd naman dapat..
bahala ka…
basta ako you know how sincere i am..

im not forcing you to stick with me
nor believe in me
na sayo na yun…if how far you cud go with me
full of honesty…
treat me with respect..
and accept me even im not perfect..
 

Ba't di ako makatulog kahit inaantok na ko?

Ewan ko??? inaantok na ako pero hnd ko magawang matulog. Siguro excited lang akong matapos tong blog ko...hnd.hnd.. siguro overwhelmed lang ako sa mga dumarating sa aking blessings...hmm..o baka may problema pa rin ako?? ewan ko.. basta ang naaalala ko lang, sabi kasi nila pag di ka raw makatulog may nagiisip daw sayo..
eh sino naman kaya nagiisip sakin??? ikaw ba yun? hehe..biro lang. pero sabi nila pag biro raw, kalahati ay totoo..di nga? eh panu yan, kung may nagiisip nga sa akin, may naiisip akong tao na pwedeng iniisip ako.. instinct ba to? sabi naman nila, pag instinct daw, mataas ang posibilidad na totoo lalo na sa mga babae.

kung naiisip mo man ako ngayon, salamat at naaalala mo ako. lam mo kahit pala pakiramdam ko nagiisa ako...may kasama pa rin pala ako. na tahimik na nagiisip sakin. sa katunayan nga, ang sweet mo para sa akin.. kasi ilang araw na akong di nakakatulog ng maayos.. ibig sabihin, araw araw mo rin akong iniisip.. eh bakt naman? malalim siguro ang dahilan..o pwedeng wala lang..
bt di mo na lang ako lapitan..para magkaunawaan.. hnd naman ako suplado...hmm.. hindi gwapo mejo matino..kalog at mahilig chumibog.. mabait din naman ako..mabait pa sa alaga mong aso..
kng ayaw mo ko lapitan..bt di mo nalang ako kausapin..hehe ganun di naman un... loko ako eh no.. itext mo nalng ako..siguro alam mo na num ko..kung hnd, hit me sa comment area.. will see there..
hehe..ang hirap magisip ng closing...mejo patulog nq... basta aayusin ko tong blog na 2.. tnx for catching me here..