Hills

Happy endings are not always the true story. There are also happy beginnings that will help you make the ending happy even it's not. We call it contentment.

It was quarter to 5 am earlier when I wrap up and went out of the house to go to work. I went to my father's room to give him a kiss goodbye for a while when he caught my attention and he was waiting outside for me. I can't imagine how long was he staying there and I thought he was just waiting for me to get out so he can take a look at me while walking away. I kissed him at his cheek and suddenly he said he will walk with me. At that moment, I don't know what to say because if you'll see his condition, he can't walk properly, can't stand in an upright posture, and can't even talk perfectly. At that moment, I was touched. For the past few days that I had my head drowning in dark clouds and unorganized thoughts, and my face that can't even take one smile....the feeling has vanished. I felt great. So perfect coz its when I needed someone to talk with. Again I was blessed.  "Sometimes the person you most expect to be there for you is not around but amzingly, the least you expect is the one who will make you feel you're not left alone and not taken for granted".

Lightest morning to start with the Valentine's day. We talked. We discussed a bit about health issues. My dad can't tell me straight that he loves me but the way he gave advices regarding my health makes me understand what he wants to say. I became speechless when he suddenly asked me "how old are you?" and then I'm hesitant to tell my age, I was planning to tell a little lie coz at the back of my mind, he might ask a follow up question, "do you already have plans to settle down?" Ha!! I was shaking then, but he's just really concerned about my health. I also thought that since he's already experiencing painful days because of his condition, he might want to have grandchildren from me. Obviously, I can settle but I can't raise a family yet. Kidding aside, he told me that when I reach 30, I should set appointment for check ups so I can monitor and maintain my health.

Looking at my dad, way back on his early adulthood age, he is not the type of person to say those words for me. He smokes...he drinks...not occasionally.. and he smokes...and drinks...then there he goes. Not just a grown man but a better man from his learnings and I appreciate that he doesn't  want me to go through that life he had been.

Someday, I'll be settling down, and whoever i'll be spending my life with will have good stories about my dad and of course about my mom...I'll make sure they'll recognize them as someone to idolize...someone that is difficult to live without with.