finding nemo

looking for friends? i'm here! i can be your shoulder. i can listen to your heart breaking stories and make some milk and cookies so to show you what you need to learn. but how about me? i need friends too! i need someone who will listen to me. sometimes someone who can defend me.

i grew up believing that making friends without choosing is a golden attitude. it lessens your potential-enemy to multiply, u'r guaranteed happy moments.

i grew up believing that beeing ggod and nice all the time makes a happy man. coz people will never let you down. they will respect you the way you do to them.. and they can't lie to you and do some unexpected bad things.

i grew up beleiving that all the people in the world are equal, naturally kind and loving. we are just brought defferently with our attitude and personality.

but now, i grew up knowing that all of these things are uncertain.

some people may like you not because of your whole being but because of hidden agendas. you will thnought that, that friend of yours is true, worth keeping and someone you can trust.

friendship is not measured on how many times you shared thoughts, secrets, and laughter. it won't even measure based on how many times you went out to chill, or said special things with each other. for me, i measure it on how they really think about you. i measure true friends if they honestly say what's true to you. and i find true friends when they do good things in front of you and even at your back..that they don't even plan to do bad things to you. that they won't allow their greediness to stab you at your back.

i am growing up learning that i don't really have to be friends with anyone around me.. if they find me as a friend material then that's good to know.

i am growing up learning, that i don't need to win everybody's heart to look at me as a beautiful person...as my sister said, "just be with yourself...hayaan mo sila kung anong isipin o sabihin nila sayo, ang importante pinakikitunguhan mo sila ng maayos"

i am growing up learning that not all of your friends are worth keeping. its true that friends just come and go.

i will still be growing up and learning that i'll be very careful enough and be choosy to make friends and being with others. i'll say this once...hindi na mangyayari ulit sa akin mga nangyari sa akin noon.