inspiration

its been so long since i visited my page. kung nakakapagsalita lang si blog, minura na ako sa tampo. dati kasi halos araw-araw akong nandito.. nakatambay.. doing day dreaming. walking in the clouds sabay type ng mga sasabihin. i don't know if i'm just too busy with the world or i'm just to little irresponsible with time management. i just want to say something. i told told myself kung di ko kasi sya maisusulat dito. wala akong malabasan ng naiisip ko. its about this old lady that used to be a cigarette vendor outside the former bdo branch in BAYAN, NOVALICHES. she's just next to where tricycle terminal is located. i always see her there. sometimes, not. sometimes, another old man and lady is using the place if she's not there.

here's the real story...it was almost 6:00 PM when i went home. jepp pa lang ako, it was a bit dark and showing signs of raining. i got stuck on a traffic so i walked towards the tricycle terminal. so far, nakasakay na ako nung umulan. the rain was a bit heavy and the breeze too. i saw this old lady standing and fixing her things. ung paninda nya kasi liliparin. literally nililipad ung iba.. with her colorful umbrella na sira-sira and tumitiklop na sa lakas ng hangin, i just can't help but to just stare to this old lady. nagulat ako at natakot nang napansin kong may dugo na tumulo from her forehead to her cheek. itong malambot kong puso na mas lalong lumambot nung nakita ko yon. gusto kong bumaba at tulungan si lola but i have things with me inside the tricycle..may katabi pa ako. i just hope kapag may nakita akong ganun...lumakas loob ko para tumulong.. mahirap sa konsensya kapag may nangangailangan tas hindi mo natulungan..

i just remembered myself..comparing myself to that old lady, ako walang wala ngayon.. i don't have phone to use, i have limited resources, and i don't even know kung lilipat na ba ako...dahil wala na akong matutuluyan dito sa amin...but i have food, i have my job, i have my body parts complete...and yet nagrereklamo pa ako sa buhay. i have good memories with people na dumaan sa buhay ko..i have remembrance, i have good palces i visited....and yet minsan hnd  ko maapreciate kung ano ang life.. kung anong meron ako..

but looking on that old lady struggling for her assets...sabi ko sa sarili ko, inspirasyon sila.. kasi they helped people like me realize what we're missing and not seeing. sila nagtitiis, araw araw sa gutom, sa init ng araw, and in times what happened earlier, im sure bukas anjan ulit sila.

oo we can say, ganun talaga buhay nila alangan namang mag inarte sila or mag tamad tamaran.. iyon na nga.. swerte tayo.. swerte ako dahil kahit papano hndi ako napunta sa ganung sitwasyon. but again people like them are inspiration to me.

=) so much about me... i reserve this page...for that old lady. i pray for her and sa mga nakikita kong kasama nya doon...sana manatili silang mapagpakumbaba at kahit papano masaya sila sa buhay. i pray that many people will get inspired to them.. ang sarap sa pakiramdam.. kesa noon na marami akong iniisip na hindi naman kailangan.. i pray for all the old aged poeple who are experiencing pain on their lives to finally find peace and happiness through the Lord.