for my dad

Hi dad, how are you.. I hope you're feeling okay. Please don't be afraid of what life awaits you. I know it’s hard from your part but I want you to know, I love you! If there would be a thing that I will die for to say to the world, that is, "I'm sorry dad". I'm aware we're not the typical dad-son relationship like having much time for bonding, playing basketball together; changing thoughts about cars, girls, and crazy things...we're not like that. But, I still appreaciate you as my world's greatest dad. That's what you are.

Right now, I have this guilty and sorrowful feeling because you're there lying down in the hospital and can't do anything but just let the days pass until you can go and leave. Dad, i'm writing this letter for you because I don't have any ways to let go of these hard feelings inside me. I want you to know that whatever happened in our past, it didn't change you as a father image to me. I'm proud of you. God knows. and i want to be like you someday. A man so strong, a good provider, brave enough to face challenges in life, a man who value friends and love ones, a good decision maker and a lot more.

Dad, did you ever regret how I grew up? The way I talk, the way I see things, the way I move, the way I speak, the way I weigh things, the way I do things for our family, the way I treated you??? I'm sorry if you think I never remembered you. It was not that way. You're the only man who loved me so much..more than unconditional. Even we do not talk that much; I never felt that I was never forgotten by you! You never raised me as a bad guy. You never gave me the best life ever can be. You never given me the most valuable gifts that i could have. You never taught how I should be when I grew up. But most of all, you gave me the most thing that made me contented in my life, my freedom! You never taught how I should recognize God that I should be a God-fearing one, but I saw that, you are. KAHIT KAILAN, i never heard you saying things that will insult me, you never degrade me, you never judged me from the way I decide, the way I think, and the way I move....DAD ILOVEYOU SO MUCH and it will never change! If I’ll be given another chance to live, I want to have you as my dad. I will never know when you will leave me but, if that comes, I never regretted having you in my life! There will never come a day that I will fordget you. I know this is not your last day but I just want to tell you all of these things. and in fact this is not all yet. You will know everything and alam mo naman na mahal na mahal kita!