this morning I lost a friend

It was a very fine morning.. 1 hour after midnight when we we're laughing and all, Chatting and changing of thoughts...eating and sharing as if there's no tomorrow. We we're not thinking about the result of the assessment we took yesterday. We already set our mind that whatever happens, then be it. But to tell you honestly, we are all tensed as time goes by. We are thrilled about the "results" and what we are concerned withl is our friends' result.

Then the judgement time came, we we're provided for the result except for one of our co-trainee who still doesn't have the result yet...Thank God I did it...Thank God. I believe this was the first line that came out of my friends' mind. Then afterwhich, some of us felt bad...someone cried, others just smiled.

I'm so happy I made it but in my deeper thoughts I'm in pain..why? cz I know we will be losing some..and should I felt bad about it? of course. Its not about being emotional but its about my concern and connection to them. I lost four of my friends and its painful. I know its not the end of the world...but if I would be asked, why not work with the same place and not to lose them anymore. Why do we still need to go through this test if we know we can make it anyway for the trainings? What's the real parameters for us to get the job? What's the sense of Communication skills training anyway?

I remember when my trainer said, the assesssment doesn't define who you are...that's right. So then, what makes them incapable of doing the job just because they didn't pass the standards of the foreiner? If their looking for a good communicator, they shouldn't be investing their business in our homeland.

This morning I lost friends. Not because they can't speak English, not because they are dumb, not because they don't know the procedures nor a bad communicator but because they we're judged by a native speaker. and I thought we only need to be nuetral...I just hope I can use "B2" in troubleshooting.

But i'm not mad at all...I'm just thinking what if it happened to me. I'll surely say, Life is unfair. I just pray for my fellow trainess to be positive enough in whatever challenges they will face after this. coz somehow they will be an inspiration for us who were left to continue this tech journey.

i said to one of my friends who didn't make it that even though that happened, there is a bigger and better opportunity that awaits them.

This is true. They need to be ready for that. For those who did't make it, this is not a goodbye but "see you later" and for us who made it, Guys, let's rock and roll!!!

Thank you Lord, for sending us blessings EEEEEEEEEEEEVeryday of our life. We give them back to you to glorify your name. Thank you!